When the lights go out…

It’s nighttime, the kids are in bed; Hubby’s asleep but will probably say he was resting his eyes once he wakes up. You’re all alone, just you and Jesus. Who are you now? I ask myself this periodically, to see if I’m still aware of me. Lately, I recognized that I’ve simply been reacting toContinue reading “When the lights go out…”

You don’t get to be ordinary… 

I got tired of praying and fasting. It felt like it didn’t make sense, like nothing was changing, and I found myself slacking off. Each time, a situation arose and it was necessary for me to intercede on someone’s behalf. Funny right? I bargained with God because I just wanted to chill, to not haveContinue reading “You don’t get to be ordinary… “

Pt. 2 – Swallowing the pills of the past… 

It was a bitter pill to swallow, the inward denial and subsequent suppression of my true feelings numbed me completely. I was not only numbed from feeling pain, but from experiencing anything that was deemed unsafe – that included receiving love that in my adolescent estimation; I did not deserve.  After there was nowhere toContinue reading “Pt. 2 – Swallowing the pills of the past… “

Swallowing the pills of the past…

God reprimanded me like only He can about he content I’ve shared on here. For something entitled “memoirs of Keisha” there was very little insight into my history so here goes! A great deal of my childhood is blurred, based on my subconscious coping method of forgetting what hurt. During my healing process, God forcedContinue reading “Swallowing the pills of the past…”