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I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’ve been listening all morning.

Lord I need you to relieve the pressure, not just from me but for every person that is earnestly seeking to please you. Help us not to allow the voice of others to dictate who we should be. Help us not to believe the lie that there is just one way to follow you. Help us to be who we are, help us to please you by being us and not a cookie-cutter replica of a good Christian.

I don’t know when it happened, I don’t know how but somehow I lost sight of the fact that it is you alone that I aim to please. Everyday I am constantly reminded of the expectations that I may not always live up to, of the way I should look or act to be accepted. Help me to remember that you have already approved me Lord. Remind us Lord that it is your power and not our own righteousness or works that sustains us and the work you have begun in us.

But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of power may be of God and not of us.                – 2 Corinthians 5:7


Let us pray:

Holy and omnipotent God, lover of our soul. Bring us back to you, reconcile our motives and hearts back to you, back to the place where you are our influence and our standard. God relieve the pressure and stress of living up to expectations that did not come from you. Help us to differentiate between your standard and their opinion. God you matter, you alone matter. Give us your heart. Glory be to your name Lord, we receive your peace in this moment and declare it for the entire body of Christ!

In Jesus’ majestic and powerful name, amen.

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Beautifully broken … A little deeper ( Day 57 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had this really powerful message to deliver to you guys… But what I’m led to share with you is something a bit different than usual.

I speak to you, not as a spotless woman of virtue. I speak to you as a broken vessel. Repaired and redeemed by the one true living God who saw it fit to love me when I had deemed myself unlovable. I had counted myself out and saw me worthy of nothing more than the stolen moments of affection I had begun to settle for.

When I gave my heart to God, I was so broken and confused that I didn’t even expect Him to love me fully. After all, who could love a mess like me? Who could possibly love me knowing all I had done and how could anyone love me when I could barely manage to love myself? How could this perfect God ever see anything good in me? Those prophets had to be wrong, those promises in the bible sound good but they weren’t for me; they don’t know how messed up I am!

The nights I pictured the world without me and envisioned it to be better that way. There were days I hated everyone around me only because they reminded me that I existed. And even when I was foolish enough to like me, along came a reminder of how unworthy I was of love.

BUT God!!!!

He had a plan for me when I didn’t even want to exist! God kept me, literally. I’m not speaking hypothetically, I am talking about times when I should have and would have been dead. I’ve been held over a railing, had a machete held to my throat and raced down a dark highway pleading for a life I wasn’t really sure I wanted.

God loved me so much He forced me to love myself!!!! I had to love me because He did and in my intimate times with Him, He left no room for my self loathing. I’m not who I was, I do not accept what I once did. My redeemer has reconciled me to Himself and shown me the truth about me when I had bought into the lies of the enemy and those that despise me. God began pouring Himself into me and flushing out the darkness I once was familiar with. I speak to you with the authority of Jesus Christ who calls me His own and I am telling you that you are worthy, you are magnificent and you are planned! Every detail of your life is important to your creator and there is no room for you to continue to hate the beautiful being He created you to be!!!

Let love reign!

I know, the pain won’t go away right this moment. But I am a living testament that it will go away, in His presence there is fullness of joy and the more time you spend with Him… The less you spend in despair.

Try Him, try the savior that changed me. Try the God that loved me into loving myself. Try this Holy Spirit that comforts me and leads me.

Just try.

I love you, God loves you – even if you don’t love you. You can learn to. God will show you how!

– Shakeisha M.

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Thanks, but no thanks…

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Don’t do me any favours!

I beg of anyone that encounters me never to darken the doorway of my life by remaining out of obligation or to void hurting my feelings. All you are doing essentially is preventing those who God has purposed to be a part of my destiny from coming in. The art of letting go is a beautiful one that I have realized as important as the ministry of loving one another and remaining constant. You never have to remind someone to love you or prove your worth to anyone, when you feel you do.. it’s time to let go.

I have a few people that feel I am cold or dismissive but I am neither. I have a heart for people, one that allows me to feel empathy for those I encounter and reach out to help them however I can. It does a disservice to me and those I could potentially be a blessing to if all my efforts are then spent grabbing the hand of those pulling away. Go. It doesn’t mean I may not miss you, but I firmly believe in God’s will for my life. I am under the impression that he will not tie me to anyone that is not tied to me willingly, in love and is excited about being a part of my life.

This does not mean that I will stop praying for you or that I will ever have anything negative to say about you, I won’t. I simply realize that we are squatting on each other’s territory illegally. We are no longer growing and serving each other or we have ventured onto different paths, it’s okay.

Just remember…

Sometimes goodbye is the sweetest word you can utter. It releases hat person of their sense of obligation toward you and you from holding onto them in vain and releases you into your destiny.

Live a little, laugh a lot and be a blessing!

~MemoirsofKeisha~