I got tired of praying and fasting. It felt like it didn’t make sense, like nothing was changing, and I found myself slacking off. Each time, a situation arose and it was necessary for me to intercede on someone’s behalf. Funny right?

I bargained with God because I just wanted to chill, to not have to carry the burden I knew was rightfully mine. The very same burden I said YES to before, the same greater level I cried out for. It’s here now and I got lazy. Holy Spirit said one thing to me “You don’t get to be ordinary“. 

God wants a renewed yes and it requires a new sacrifice. I’ve decided that there’s no going back for me. 

I wish that meant I wouldn’t get distracted, I wish my heart was always where it should be but there are moments God has to pull in the reigns on His delinquent daughter. 

Before Yeshuah, before He revealed purpose in my life – I was empty. I was lost and felt useless. Living for Christ may sometimes feel like a daunting task. 

Then I’m reminded ….

“You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.”

‭‭John‬ ‭15:16‬ ‭NASB

None of this is about me. 

I am purposed beyond feelings and destined beyond my current destination. My tantrums to feel comfortable are hindering my birthright to be extraordinary. Just keep going! 

It’s time. Be who God has called you to be, the world is waiting and honey “You don’t get to be ordinary”. 

Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing!