Life sucks sometimes. God is amazing and His plans for us are always good but somewhere between the promise and the manifestation… life sucks for a minute.

I don’t want to live a life of obligatory service to the amazing God who has saved, delivered and loved me into being a better version of myself.

I don’t want the people depending on me to be the reason I succeed or move forward. I don’t want my passion to be fueled by the pressure of living up to anyone’s idea of what my life should look like. I want the one who gave me this life, to take it and do what He sees fit – even when I don’t understand because that’s what trusting Him means. It means I don’t get to always know how close I am to things changing, I probably won’t know how and I shouldn’t need to… but here are some truths I have to face:

1. Sometimes, pursuing purpose is as enjoyable as watching paint dry, because somewhere along the way I forgot it’s all about God and made it about doing stuff.
2. God’s plans, outweigh my agenda.
3. Just because it isn’t easy, doesn’t mean it shouldn’t be done.
4. Satan is a liar, any opportunity to trick me into believing I’m nothing or that I am failing when I am in God’s will – gives him power over me he wouldn’t otherwise have.
5. God always wins, so it kinda makes sense to leave it up to Him.

Here are some scriptures on discouragement that may help. You’re not the first, and probably won’t be the last to feel discouraged. Sometimes it feels like you’re losing when you’re doing what God asks, you feel trampled on, overlooked and forgotten but… defeat is an illusion. Serving God automatically makes you a winner. Sometimes following the call of God feels like a burden we just cannot carry, mainly because we shouldn’t be the ones carrying it. Let God do His job. Have faith, be obedient and don’t give up.

Live a little, love a lot, be a blessing!