When the lights go out…

It’s nighttime, the kids are in bed; Hubby’s asleep but will probably say he was resting his eyes once he wakes up. You’re all alone, just you and Jesus. Who are you now? I ask myself this periodically, to see if I’m still aware of me. Lately, I recognized that I’ve simply been reacting toContinue reading “When the lights go out…”

Frightening fantasy…

My fantasies have taken a frightful turn. They’re not even about me anymore.  My utmost desire is to witness the healing power of God move. My immense and passionate hope is that the power of God be revealed in its fullness and that I am both a witness and a channel of His glory.  It’sContinue reading “Frightening fantasy…”

To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence. Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me.  Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself. You love me so completely and with so much fervor thatContinue reading “To my lover…”

Fallen crown… 👑 

Many beautiful love stories and fables begin with “once upon a time” and then there’s some climax and triumph of love that leads to the inevitable and oh so misleading “happily ever after”.  Forget romance, forget the knight in shining armor. Jesus already saved you, you don’t need a husband or boyfriend for that! ThisContinue reading “Fallen crown… 👑 “

Breakdown on the breakdown… 

This weekend, I cried until my eyes burned. I sat in my shower and whimpered like an injured puppy, praying my daughter couldn’t hear me over the water running.  Something I knew God sent me into, felt like it was falling apart right before my eyes and it hurt! I prayed and prayed and stillContinue reading “Breakdown on the breakdown… “

I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’veContinue reading “I can’t take all the pressure…”

Break every chain!!!!!

When I lost my grandmother, just about our entire immediate family was at her home and Break every chain was playing on repeat. I couldn’t stand to hear the song for the following few months, it would bring unbearable grief.  Here it was, a song that was meant to bring freedom and deliverance did the exact oppositeContinue reading “Break every chain!!!!!”

Desperate for you….

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated.

99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had 99 problems, God only had to fix 1!!! I was seeking God, yet being attacked in every area of my life. I was being criticized and put down by those I loved and respected and it seemed as if everything was going wrong. But God! Being who He is saw all of whatContinue reading “99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)”

A heart like yours! (Day 72 – 100 Days of Singleness)

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, And in sin my mother conceived me. (‭Psalms‬ ‭51‬:‭5‬ NASB) Being born again, means a rebirthing from our old sinful nature into a glorious and majestic being of love. We cannot serve Christ until we learn to love like Him. Hide Your face from my sins And blotContinue reading “A heart like yours! (Day 72 – 100 Days of Singleness)”