Life and death…

The beauty of death is silence Every version of her, now deceased eulogizes the remnant that remains The beauty of death is silence The slow fading of a heartbeat, slower, softer, weaker, gone. The beauty of death is silence. For when we have died, crucifying the past and resurrecting the truth of who we areContinue reading “Life and death…”

Don’t call him my stepdad….

Many complications have risen from me saying “my daddy” and having to specify… But I could never get behind calling the man who raised me and loved me and sacrificed for me – my stepdad.  Yes, some say a step dad steps in but mine didn’t. He came running to my rescue, running to loveContinue reading “Don’t call him my stepdad….”

To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence. Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me.  Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself. You love me so completely and with so much fervor thatContinue reading “To my lover…”

I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’veContinue reading “I can’t take all the pressure…”

Desperate for you….

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated.

To the other women…

I’m so sorry that I blamed you for the men that cheated.

I’m sorry that I called out your promiscuity rather than my own fear and insecurity.

I’m sorry that I was just another source of pain for you, that I allowed my own hurt to cut you with my words.

99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had 99 problems, God only had to fix 1!!! I was seeking God, yet being attacked in every area of my life. I was being criticized and put down by those I loved and respected and it seemed as if everything was going wrong. But God! Being who He is saw all of whatContinue reading “99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)”

Day 1: Clean Texting Challenge, keep it friendly! (100 days of Singleness)

Okay cut off the love songs, put the ice cream back in the freezer and DO NOT text him! He’s not the one and you know it, he wasn’t even a good one to begin with. Don’t let your loneliness commit you to another moment in a wrong relationship! For the next 7 days weContinue reading “Day 1: Clean Texting Challenge, keep it friendly! (100 days of Singleness)”