I was a cheater too…

Most women I’ve encountered can recall various instances of being cheated on and lied to. Okay, I’m no different but what I also like to share aside from my scars are the wounds I’ve inflicted on others.  Maybe it started with me being cheated on. That doesn’t matter, it didn’t give me the right toContinue reading “I was a cheater too…”

Pt. 2 – Swallowing the pills of the past… 

It was a bitter pill to swallow, the inward denial and subsequent suppression of my true feelings numbed me completely. I was not only numbed from feeling pain, but from experiencing anything that was deemed unsafe – that included receiving love that in my adolescent estimation; I did not deserve.  After there was nowhere toContinue reading “Pt. 2 – Swallowing the pills of the past… “

Flying blind… 

Two nights ago I was on a plane, there was turbulence and the only thing I could see out the window was darkness and clouds. Yeah, get ready for the really deep synopsis of my experience because it’s coming!  But first, on the plane my first thought was to pray. Ironically enough I was readingContinue reading “Flying blind… “

Bad attitude, big problem…

It seems that these days we almost idolize having a bad attitude. We celebrate snarky comments and bad behavior and as a very sarcastic young lady myself – I get it. However, do you have an off switch?  Are you able to put the satire aside long enough to let people get close to you?Continue reading “Bad attitude, big problem…”

The stupid church…

“His watchmen are blind, They are all ignorant; They are all dumb dogs, They cannot bark; Sleeping, lying down, loving to slumber.”‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭56:10‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ I listened to a teaching at a prayer congress today. It made my heart repentant and sorrowful for my part in the laziness and complacent nature of today’s church.  Holy SpiritContinue reading “The stupid church…”

Frightening fantasy…

My fantasies have taken a frightful turn. They’re not even about me anymore.  My utmost desire is to witness the healing power of God move. My immense and passionate hope is that the power of God be revealed in its fullness and that I am both a witness and a channel of His glory.  It’sContinue reading “Frightening fantasy…”

You don’t have to pretend life doesn’t hurt…

I read these words on page 32 of “Dear Mary” written by Sarah Jakes and I closed the book.No, there’s no fancy wordplay, no great deep meaning behind it. The transparency and simplicity of that statement, brought me to a place I had been before and desperately needed to tap into once again. Sometimes lifeContinue reading “You don’t have to pretend life doesn’t hurt…”

To my lover…

You awaken the depths of my soul and breathe life into my weathered existence. Your lips press against mine and your words spill out of me.  Your eyes lineup with mine and you change my vision of the world, of my past, of myself. You love me so completely and with so much fervor thatContinue reading “To my lover…”