I can’t take all the pressure…

I’m so afraid to fall. Sometimes I get petrified at the very thought of dropping the ball, of not being what I’m expected to be. After all, I’m responsible for those that look at me as a representation of Christ right? I think Pressure by Jonathan McReynolds hit the nail om the head for me – I’veContinue reading “I can’t take all the pressure…”

Break every chain!!!!!

When I lost my grandmother, just about our entire immediate family was at her home and Break every chain was playing on repeat. I couldn’t stand to hear the song for the following few months, it would bring unbearable grief.  Here it was, a song that was meant to bring freedom and deliverance did the exact oppositeContinue reading “Break every chain!!!!!”

Desperate for you….

Sometimes I don’t trust God though I want to. Sometimes I cannot see how in the world where I am can lead to where He told me I would be. Sometimes I have to repent for my unbelief. I get confused, scared and frustrated.

To the other women…

I’m so sorry that I blamed you for the men that cheated.

I’m sorry that I called out your promiscuity rather than my own fear and insecurity.

I’m sorry that I was just another source of pain for you, that I allowed my own hurt to cut you with my words.

The other daughter…

I’m the other daughter. I’m the one that didn’t happen to be born in the cocoon of a happy marriage as my other siblings and I underwent a much more complex developmental process. I’m the “awkward situation” we dare not discuss, subject to statements like “Oh I didn’t know he had a daughter this old”.Continue reading “The other daughter…”

99 cent love

His love was cheap Like a bright red sign that alluded to a great purchase only to leave you with a knockoff version of what you truly wanted He spoke of a love that he couldn’t show It was tender, caring and deceptive It was a love that lent it’s kindness to a soul inContinue reading “99 cent love”

99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had 99 problems, God only had to fix 1!!! I was seeking God, yet being attacked in every area of my life. I was being criticized and put down by those I loved and respected and it seemed as if everything was going wrong. But God! Being who He is saw all of whatContinue reading “99 Problems (Day 99 – 100 Days of Singleness)”

A heart like yours! (Day 72 – 100 Days of Singleness)

Behold, I was brought forth in iniquity, And in sin my mother conceived me. (‭Psalms‬ ‭51‬:‭5‬ NASB) Being born again, means a rebirthing from our old sinful nature into a glorious and majestic being of love. We cannot serve Christ until we learn to love like Him. Hide Your face from my sins And blotContinue reading “A heart like yours! (Day 72 – 100 Days of Singleness)”

Harlot to Help Meet (Day 63 – 100 Days of Singleness)

And behold, a woman comes to meet him, Dressed as a harlot and cunning of heart. She is boisterous and rebellious, Her feet do not remain at home; “Come, let us drink our fill of love until morning; Let us delight ourselves with caresses. With her many persuasions she entices him; With her flattering lipsContinue reading “Harlot to Help Meet (Day 63 – 100 Days of Singleness)”

Beautifully broken … A little deeper ( Day 57 – 100 Days of Singleness)

I had this really powerful message to deliver to you guys… But what I’m led to share with you is something a bit different than usual. I speak to you, not as a spotless woman of virtue. I speak to you as a broken vessel. Repaired and redeemed by the one true living God whoContinue reading “Beautifully broken … A little deeper ( Day 57 – 100 Days of Singleness)”